You Are A Relationship - You Are Exactly What You Want To Be

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The moment you start to individuate, someone other than yourself is less than yourself . . . game over. It's a social pastime, you get an A in class but you flunk life. Perception, time, is a single thread with no beginning and no end and time weaves that single thread through all space. Time creates space, separation creates time. The thread of separation is a continuum because if it isn't you are not be able to get back to the source anything you leave can be returned to , anything that is sick can be healed, anything that is broken can be repaired. You just have to trace the steps but are you the weave of the cloth of space . . . or are you the thread of time or . . . are you an individual fiber on the thread of time? If you are ''all about me me me you me me'', ''I am really working on myself, really working on myself. I am really working on myself'', you're a fiber. You're not even in the game of life. You are individuating to a maximum degree. It's very prideful. It is rewarding on a very painful level. You always have to keep it up because if it falls apart, if the construct falls apart one moment, the next moment you are trying to pick up the pieces. It's an exhausting event to be an individual. The smaller that individuation becomes the less you are affecting, the more it is affecting you . . . the less affecting you are the more there is that is affecting you. Under those circumstances, you become extremely insecure.Under that insecurity, you have tremendous preference and under the pressure, tension, friction and stress of that tremendous preference, you distort your perception, you distort your observation and you don't see what is. You see your fear, you see your insecurity in everyone you look at, you see through that lens of insecurity. Then you start looking around for someone who can save you. Try to get a loan from a bank when you're desperate for money. Why would they want to loan to you if you're desperate? How did you become desperate'' . . . they would say ''You don't seem to be able to manage money''. Who would want to be your relationship if you're desperate for a relationship? They would get sucked down the rabbit hole of your desperation. Desperation means without spirit. You are a relationship. You are what you want to be. The journey is to the acceptance that you are who you want to be. It is not an external journey, it is completely within you. When you begin to relate to this relationship, your fiber begins to spin itself into the rest of the thread of time. You begin to feel the connection to more than just now. It isn't a concept, it isn't an intellectual exercise. It is a visceral sensation and once you begin to spin yourself into the thread of time you can begin to weave space. Once you begin to weave space is when you can manifest