Seekers and students often complain that when they sit down to meditate, they are not always greeted with pleasant openness, readiness or a heartfelt sense of willingness. Yogi Bhajan said many times: “If when meditating all your garbage doesn’t come out to greet you, you are probably not meditating.” Meditation disassembles old thought patterns, and it reassembles them into new ones. This way it creates the path for the “pre-awakened” to becoming “awakened.”
This isn’t always a dance; it can be a struggle, especially when running into patterns that have become attachments.
Attachments are common when patterns have been in place a long time. They are entrenched in the established system, and the subconscious believes they are protecting you and isn’t willing to give them up easily.
However, don’t be concerned. Meditation is not about getting it right, it is about getting right to it and doing so daily. It is not about proving who you are, but rather improving it.